I wanted you to come my way

I wanted you to come my way
scary as it is,
at least it would be fun
I understand not everyone feels that way
Some desire peace
and happy that they have found each other
I respect and have always wanted that
but when my love of you put your desire ahead of mine
or shall I say
when your desire became the most important desire of mine,
something happened…

And now,
Fate is testing the real me again,
which way do I turn?

I can’t go back to who I used to be
I can’t find another person to replace you
after taking you down from the pedestal,
you look not so different from any other figures I collected over the years. Sigh.

Without the pedestal, how do I set the stage this time?  Things are happening.


I want to touch more of those wonderful souls, with my mind.    —  Feb 2018


Where are you tonight?

I want to see your face.

Talking about trusting you,
would you trust someone like yourself?

But I take risks, calculated ones.
So I will, to give my soul a chance
to find what I really want

I dare you,
to make yourself trustworthy for once
shake my hand with your soul promise
that you will do as you said, to make things happen in your life
You don’t need to bullshit me,
unlike the rest of the world,
because you can do anything you set your mind to.

And I,
let me focus,
would devote my power and energy in creating ideas, for the lasting Pleasure.

I want a connection of souls,
I want to see the world changing with you by my side
That evening, though it was brief
there was a moment that I saw your soul
Do you remember?

I want to see your face.
I want to see your soul.
Or… you are just waiting to get old?

“But I always get what I want … …”
“Sure you will.  Just not today.
What’s the rush… as long as you are having fun?”